So tonight in a severe case of self-indulgence I consumed 4 slices of pizza - oh please close your mouth - we have all done this at some point. I feel full, sick, and just plain basically - why the hell did I do that to myself.
So here is my promise to myself - tomorrow I will treat my body in a way it deserves to be treated, in a way that I want it to last another 50 years, in a way that I will not be ashamed of. i leave on Sunday for a week's business trip and this is a time for me to get my shit together.
In a world where we cannot control illness, employment, love, hate, height, looks - I can control my weight
Till next week
Peggy
Friday, November 9, 2007
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
I wish I was one of those people who -------
When they get stressed, they cannot eat
Had stronger discipline
Had more self control
I wish I wish I wish
Yet
I come from a loving family - a family who I knew loved me unconditionally
I have been with my partner for 27 years and with whom my life would be incomplete
Parents who let their kids know how important they were\are
Grandparents who only wanted to love you to death
A sister that means the world to me - without my partner and my sister my world would not exist
Nieces who give me the privilege of being part of their lives
Brother, Nephews who I love
So yes I could wish to be 50 pounds lighter and one day my wish may come true but if it means giving up anything listed above - forgetabout - I will weigh what I weigh because from the list above - all my wishes have come true
Peggy
Had stronger discipline
Had more self control
I wish I wish I wish
Yet
I come from a loving family - a family who I knew loved me unconditionally
I have been with my partner for 27 years and with whom my life would be incomplete
Parents who let their kids know how important they were\are
Grandparents who only wanted to love you to death
A sister that means the world to me - without my partner and my sister my world would not exist
Nieces who give me the privilege of being part of their lives
Brother, Nephews who I love
So yes I could wish to be 50 pounds lighter and one day my wish may come true but if it means giving up anything listed above - forgetabout - I will weigh what I weigh because from the list above - all my wishes have come true
Peggy
Sunday, November 4, 2007
We will all get there - eventually
Right now things are at a stand still - there are days when I wake up and say this will be a breeze and then something happens and it goes down hill. I have accomplished one thing - I do not keep things in the house that I know, if I let myself, I will eat the entire package. I am trying but I know deep down I am not giving it 100%, not putting forth the effort that I know I can and need to do.
Why? Somedays I feel that I am carryig more on my shoulders than my weight but this is life, some people have it easier, others have it harder. Either way, we all have our struggles and we all deal with them in our own way.
Tomorrow is monday - next week - new day - new beginnings
My goal - for you to see less of me next week (I know you can't see me but you will)
Peggy
Why? Somedays I feel that I am carryig more on my shoulders than my weight but this is life, some people have it easier, others have it harder. Either way, we all have our struggles and we all deal with them in our own way.
Tomorrow is monday - next week - new day - new beginnings
My goal - for you to see less of me next week (I know you can't see me but you will)
Peggy
Thursday, November 1, 2007
No luck so far
I searched the internet and found a large listing of foods that WW says can be included in the CORE program - lots of food, should be able to follow the program so tell me something - how come when I went out last night I managed to eat everything that was not listed? How can that be when there are over 1,000 items on this damn list that I found.
checklist:
motivation - missing
desire - I would say yes but doesn't that tie in with motivation If I had the desire, I would be motivated.
Other people wake up and just do not think about what they will eat, when they will eat it
Do I live to eat or Eat to Live?
checklist:
motivation - missing
desire - I would say yes but doesn't that tie in with motivation If I had the desire, I would be motivated.
Other people wake up and just do not think about what they will eat, when they will eat it
Do I live to eat or Eat to Live?
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
3 Cheers for Lane Bryant
First of all - to all my weight challenged friends - please read the comments left on the blog - the comments are priceless.
Okay - Lane Bryant
This afternoon I stopped by a Lane Bryant with a friend - and I must give credit where credit is due - they seem to only hire those people whom they are trying to sell to. There were no size 0-12 or even 14 today. The women working were women who would be able to wear the sizes that Lane Byrant sells. When I lived in Connecticut, I went to the Lane. Bryant in the Trumbull Mall and the women who worked there would not be able to fit into GAP clothing. Well the same thing in Florida, these girls could only wear what they sold and I think that is wonderful. Employ those people who your clientel can relate to.
I also have a suggestion to WW - hire those people who are "a work in progress". What I am trying to say is why do you always have to have WW leaders who stand up in front and say "Hi, my name is Skinny and I will be passing along my pictures when my name was Fatty and if I can do it so can you". Employee people who have reached their first 10% and are working towards their next 10% - have someone stand in front of you and say I am with you, I get weighed in the same time as you do, I go up & down with you, etc. Those people who say here I am, I am the example, I am where you want to be - you just want to smack them.
Peggy
Okay - Lane Bryant
This afternoon I stopped by a Lane Bryant with a friend - and I must give credit where credit is due - they seem to only hire those people whom they are trying to sell to. There were no size 0-12 or even 14 today. The women working were women who would be able to wear the sizes that Lane Byrant sells. When I lived in Connecticut, I went to the Lane. Bryant in the Trumbull Mall and the women who worked there would not be able to fit into GAP clothing. Well the same thing in Florida, these girls could only wear what they sold and I think that is wonderful. Employ those people who your clientel can relate to.
I also have a suggestion to WW - hire those people who are "a work in progress". What I am trying to say is why do you always have to have WW leaders who stand up in front and say "Hi, my name is Skinny and I will be passing along my pictures when my name was Fatty and if I can do it so can you". Employee people who have reached their first 10% and are working towards their next 10% - have someone stand in front of you and say I am with you, I get weighed in the same time as you do, I go up & down with you, etc. Those people who say here I am, I am the example, I am where you want to be - you just want to smack them.
Peggy
Monday, October 29, 2007
ever want that something - But
All day today I wanted something but I could not figure out what it is that I want. This was all day long - I thought about the 15 individual serving bags of JAX that I have in the garage and didn't want them. Now I know what you're thinking - wow she has such will power - nah - I ate the other 16 bags last week so right now I have had my fill of JAX.
I ventured out today (I work from home)and thought about stopping at Starbucks but decided that all the calories in an Iced Caramel Machiatta was not worth it - okay I did not have enough cash on me to buy it so that's why I didn't get it.
So as I sit here full from dinner I still have that feeling that I want something but can't figure it out -
Hopefully by the time I figure it out I will be to tired to do anything about it -
Until tomorrow
Peggy
I ventured out today (I work from home)and thought about stopping at Starbucks but decided that all the calories in an Iced Caramel Machiatta was not worth it - okay I did not have enough cash on me to buy it so that's why I didn't get it.
So as I sit here full from dinner I still have that feeling that I want something but can't figure it out -
Hopefully by the time I figure it out I will be to tired to do anything about it -
Until tomorrow
Peggy
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Richard Simmons where are you?
Last night as I tossed and turned (yes it seems 50 and insomia go hand in hand) I realized what we are missing - MOTIVATION. We do not miss and need or want the nutritionist, the scale weigher, the lecturer - we want the Motivator. The person who builds us up, gets us excited, the person that we do not want to disappoint. Sure we know this weight loss thingy is for us but deep down inside, we all need to do it for someone so we don't disappoint them. We never really do it just for us because we grew up thinking if we did something just for us then we were called selfish.
We watch the Biggest Loser and the next day, we take turkey for lunch, have salad and piece of chicken for dinner but within 2 nghts after the weekly show we are having KFC or Mickey D's. Come on admit it. WW preaches parking your car the farthest away from your desination - hey I live in Florida and there is a 90% chance that when I return to my car - it's raining so guess what - I will waste a tank of gas to get the closest parking spot. On the other hand, my mother parks so far away that you need to call a cab to get to the store. Is it a generation thing or does she figure the farther away, less crowded the parking lot area, easier to recognize her car - that must be the reason for not excercising.
Today's schedule - nothing much - a little of this; a little of that.
As you may or may not know, I am trying this journey by reducing the white stuff - yeh the potatoes, white bread etc so my motto today is:
"If it's white it ain't right, if it's brown, let it down"
Hey I know my grammer is not the best but lets be realistic here - this is only a blog written by an overweight adult with pudgy fingers so I think it is just fine.
Till tomorrow -
We watch the Biggest Loser and the next day, we take turkey for lunch, have salad and piece of chicken for dinner but within 2 nghts after the weekly show we are having KFC or Mickey D's. Come on admit it. WW preaches parking your car the farthest away from your desination - hey I live in Florida and there is a 90% chance that when I return to my car - it's raining so guess what - I will waste a tank of gas to get the closest parking spot. On the other hand, my mother parks so far away that you need to call a cab to get to the store. Is it a generation thing or does she figure the farther away, less crowded the parking lot area, easier to recognize her car - that must be the reason for not excercising.
Today's schedule - nothing much - a little of this; a little of that.
As you may or may not know, I am trying this journey by reducing the white stuff - yeh the potatoes, white bread etc so my motto today is:
"If it's white it ain't right, if it's brown, let it down"
Hey I know my grammer is not the best but lets be realistic here - this is only a blog written by an overweight adult with pudgy fingers so I think it is just fine.
Till tomorrow -
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