Thursday, November 1, 2007

No luck so far

I searched the internet and found a large listing of foods that WW says can be included in the CORE program - lots of food, should be able to follow the program so tell me something - how come when I went out last night I managed to eat everything that was not listed? How can that be when there are over 1,000 items on this damn list that I found.
checklist:
motivation - missing
desire - I would say yes but doesn't that tie in with motivation If I had the desire, I would be motivated.

Other people wake up and just do not think about what they will eat, when they will eat it

Do I live to eat or Eat to Live?

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I guess that there will be a time in our lives that we just click into that "drive" mode and just eat the right things in the right portion size at the right time with the right amount of excerise. It's when we click into it, not when we feel we should be clicked into it. There are days on end we click and there are days when we don't. Why don't we ever give ourselves credit for the days when it all click together. Why do we just focus on the days when we don't click in. I think that we are the type of peple that are perfectionist, the all or nothing mentality, the black and white outlooks. I think that is out first problem. Instead of saying ok today I did good, we say nothing, but as soon as we fall off the wagon (that would be the wagon that we rode to Mickey "Ds") we start knocking ourselves down and tell ourselves how we never finish things we start, we will always be fat and we are lazy unmotivated people. But what happened to the right things of eating healthy and excerising that we did yesterday, why did we forget that good doing and only concentrate on the bad. PERFECTIONSIT are there worst critics, we do it to ourselves. I truely believe that we will all succeed at weight loss, when weight loss is truely something that we really want to do, and not feel it is something that we have to do. I don't like people telling me or directing me to do things, I don't like it from my job, my kids, my husband, my friends, my family and especially for the media. We are not the same, my best trips sometimes are to amusement parks, you sit there watch all the people go by and realize you are normal. There are people prettier, taller, shorter, skinnier, fatter, better dresser, worst dressed, better hair do, worst hair do, but you know what, we are all there, doing the same thing, having fun with the people we went there with. We are all laughing and having fun, eating, drinking and just living our own lives the way we want. Hey, my weight right now does not dictate that I cannot do anything. I can fit into rides at the amusement parks, I can ride in a airplane without an extender belt, I can jump rope, I have good blood test results, I don't require any assistance from anyone, but you know what, with all these "right" things going on in my life, I am still supposed to lose weight because: my bmi is too high, my weight don't jive with my height says the American Heart Assoc., the media says, size 12 and over are now plus sizes. So who is dictating to me about my weight, I allow the outsiders too, the ones that really could give too shits where I live or die and if I do die, wouldn't even matter, because those people don't really know me, but the people that don't know me or care about me, I allow to dictate who I am and how I feel. Damn I must be one stupid person. I weight lose is not for me now then so be it. Maybe tommorrow, maybe next month, maybe next year, but when? I don't know and when I do, you'll know, cause there will be less of me when you see me.